I don't think I'm healthy, seriously?

sidekickpoodle · Yahoo User

I notice that when I'm trying to lose weight, I eat too little for breakfast and lunch, average dinner. Dessert is problem because of my period is coming. But I have serious problem, I think I'm not thin enough no matter how much I exercise. I recently went to school counselor, the things was better until I noticed that I don't feel thin and walked on treadmill for 4-5 miles to burn a slice of cake today. That's not good, I thought of talking to my mom but when's right time? I felt like my thighs is too chunky, not lean and weight is not normal, and sometimes I just eat too little, and run lot at basketball practice and eat average dinner, no doubles, then repeat next day. I don't want to be sick, help. Sorry for long questionI used to make myself throw up, but that was years ago. Now I don't want to go back to that because of pain, I just want to stop worrying about my body and enjoy my teenage years. I'm only 15 and have done lot of bad things to lose weight, like starving myself, throwing up, over exercise, eating too little or lot, no exercise and obession. My friends doesn't know that at all, I don't want to shock them. I rather to stop all of that but how?